- Maria Kang
- On December 10, 2016
I have struggled with depression ever since I had my son just over two years ago. It was something that I did not realize until my son was almost one, and not something that I admitted to my husband until about 4 months ago. There was an enormous strain that had been on my marriage since the birth of my son, and I felt like a terrible mother for thinking that, and an even worse one for saying it out loud. I loved my son, but everything seemed just too hard or just too exhausting to do. After we moved to Washington from Colorado I heard someone close to me admit that they had depression and I related to a lot of the things that he said. I realized that my weight had gotten so far off track (the amount I weighed was the same as when I was about 7 months pregnant) because I was trying to make myself feel better with food. It was hard to feel happy or gratification from things that I was doing, so I just ate whatever sounded good to make me feel better.
During this 12 week challenge I especially tried to be mindful of the things I was eating. When I wasn’t hungry, why did it seem so hard to resist “just one bite” of something that wasn’t my favorite? I also was determined to find something that I enjoyed doing for exercise. I started going to the gym with my husband and he got me into weight lifting. I do not get to go as regularly as I’d like with his work schedule and the unpredictability of being the mom of a toddler, but I do go when I can and I really enjoy it. There is a huge feeling of accomplishment and satisfaction that I haven’t felt very often, because the past 2 years I feel like I’ve been struggling to keep up with life.
Now I feel more like I’m pushing forward than tagging along. It’s still hard and I still have days that feel like a huge mountain to climb, but gaining some more self confidence and respect for myself has made things easier. I have also found that getting my body healthy helps my soul to feel healthier, too. I feel like a better mom when I am striving to better myself as a person, even if that means having someone else watch him while I go to the gym. I have found that the more strength I build physically, the stronger I feel emotionally and spiritually. When I hit a new goal I feel stronger, more powerful, and more capable as a woman, wife, and mother. I’ve gone from 170 lbs to 157 lbs. I have a long journey ahead but I am proud of what I have accomplished and it feels amazing.
Congrats to our Region 10 pot challenge winner,Chelsea Woolsey for being an incredible inspiration and following through on our 12 week challenge! You have $220 extra shopping money this season and we hope you get something extra awesome for yourself! Our No Excuse Moms followed our official NEM program, where they used a fitness calendar, logged in their meals, participated online/in-person and overcame their excuses!
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